Now that I’ve got a tattoo, I know it’s a mystery.
I guess you could say I’m one of the few people who can actually describe my tattoo, which is not only very intricate, but also very beautiful.
It’s like a cross between a flower and a butterfly.
That’s what it looks like when I take it out of the jar.
The reason I love tattoos is that they allow me to communicate with myself, to feel more connected to the universe.
They allow me a sense of being connected to people, and I can communicate with them, I can have a relationship with them.
It allows me to create art.
It’s very personal to me, it’s very unique to me.
I’m a very, very, personal person.
When I got my first tattoo, it was a very abstract design, a symbol.
I was in the hospital for about a month.
This is my tattoo that says, ‘A woman who has survived the ravages of time.’
That symbol, that was my first ink.
I used it for about three weeks.
I was just going through a rough time in my life.
I had to go through my divorce and everything.
I lost my job, my apartment, my car.
My whole life was at stake.
I felt like my life was in tatters.
So I took a lot of pain medication, because I was taking it to kill the pain, but it was too much.
I couldn’t function.
I could barely eat.
I just couldn’t do anything.
Then, I got a call from my girlfriend, who was an old friend.
She had this beautiful tattoo on her arm.
She told me, ‘I need you to get a tattoo for me.’
I was like, ‘Yeah, of course, babe, I’m doing it for you.’
I took it and it was like a dream come true.
I got to work, I worked my ass off, I took it out, and it looked like the moon.
Every tattoo artist I know says, “You can never have too many tattoos.”
It really takes a toll on you.
It takes a lot out of you.
When I got this tattoo, my body was in so much pain.
I would take medication every single day, I would get so sick.
I started having an eating disorder, and then I started to feel so lonely, so I started taking antidepressants.
It was devastating.
I got so sick, and now I can’t eat.
It’s really, really hard to get through life.
It just becomes a nightmare.
You can’t really take it back.
When you have tattoos, you can’t do it.
I’ve had my first three tattoos, and they’re all beautiful, and some are more intricate than others.
Some of them are really beautiful.
They’re so complicated.
It really takes away from me when I have to get up and go to the bathroom.
It makes me feel so isolated.
I get anxiety all the time, and the anxiety I get is just unbearable.
So I have been going to my doctor and saying, ‘You have to stop.
I can never do this anymore.’
They told me I would have to have my right arm amputated.
I said, ‘No, I have an arm.
I don’t want to have an amputation.
I have tattoos.
It doesn’t matter.
I want them to stay on my arm.’
The doctors were like, ”I’m going to give you a choice.
You can take the tattoo off, or you can do the arm amputation.’
I said ‘OK.’
I went back to my friends, and everybody’s like, “We can’t get rid of these tattoos.’
I’m like, why?
They’re like, you’re the only one who wants to have tattoos and wants to make money off of them.
So they put them back on.
They just put it back on, because it was never a problem.
Now, I get anxious, I feel really lonely.
I feel like I’m living in a bubble.
Then I got another tattoo.
This one has a butterfly, and that’s what I get to wear every day.
I have a very strong relationship with my family.
I love them.
My mom and dad are my family and my family is my family, and my mom and my dad are really my best friends.
I really don’t feel like my dad is my father anymore.
I think he’s a little bit jealous of my tattoo.
He doesn’t really understand what it is, but he’s like my brother, my best friend.
He’s really into my tattoos.
He does his own tattoo business, but we’re not a couple.
He goes to my grandma’s house and goes to her house, and she’s like ‘Oh my gosh, you got an amazing tattoo.’
It’s just amazing.